Something very small
Lives in there still.
A black flower
Blooming in the darkness.
Holding her breath,
Waiting to be touched.
Here comes the sun,
Where do the other children play?
She can hear the trees.
The loner’s black thoughts
He curdled the smell of absence
In soured milk.
These are sinister times.
They begin and end in silence
Where the barren fields are far away,
The moon half-asleep.
It is snowing outside,
The dark blindly asserting itself.
She steps naked from the dark room
Into the cool circle of light.
The mirror she can’t escape,
Saying her name over and over
From somewhere wetter, more dangerous.
All she has done,
All she has planned
Has led to this.
Look how beautiful she is.
YOU’RE OK, I say
for what must be time
two hundred tonight
but the words are
just words and only
desperation in tone
is heard, and growing.
Untitled(to Victor Cobo)
inside the phantom of difference
of bluster and below
in lieu of definition
blue exorcist of the dirty old town
soulfire of ignorant bliss
Sharon hopes to sleep in the lake
behind the house where it was taken years ago,
not by the amoebas in the puddles or the rain in the wind she keeps
thinking she’ll turn back
the almanac tide she brought, the salt
She stuck under the yellowing nail
Imagine the lover who never
came around the side for you, the different kinds of birds you waited for and
never saw. Imagine the arsonist’s
homeland is the orchard
full of its rabbling humiliations
the almanac peels and you ask it why
it never comes,
the fog thick enough to cover us.
Through their enclosure, they watch us — wild, magnificent, inquisitive creatures. Their almond eyes are candid, impenetrable, with a glow wavering in them. Their erect hood-shaped ears twitch lightly. One of the females is purring — lips, teeth and tongue are vibrating as her paws wallow. On her gingery coat a pup rolls and stumbles. She wrestles him with superb feline agility.
In his hollow log, an older dingo coughs and sneezes; alarmed perhaps. Others are simply running and chasing each other in the reserve where king parrots fly in to feed on treats left hooked on trees. Under a eucalyptus, a pack of three dingoes play with short snorting sounds. I can see their large canines. Their tune and behaviour suddenly change from robust play to a standstill. What made them stop, I wonder. Now they’re stretching their necks and opening their mouths. Howling begins. A modulated succession of high and low-pitched notes. Is this some kind of signal? a visitor asks. The calls are quite recognisable. A yodel … the same visitor muses.
The keeper, an Indigenous man walking by, looks at us and mimics yodel-ay-ee-ooo … a yodel alright. Yes, my dingoes can yodel, he adds. Well … the dingo way … He points at the one on the sandstone look-out. That’s the clever one, he remarks. It’s mainly at sunset that he gets his best tune out. Something to do with the moon maybe … Or just calling …
The dingoes can yodel, someone in the group repeats. At that moment the howling stops, and the dogs return to play. All go for a chase, circling around bushes and trees, climbing on rocks and over fallen trees, until reaching our group watching at the fence. That’s where the maestro abruptly stops, comes near, stands on his hind legs and through the wire licks our hands. We say bravo to him. The other two linger there, watching on, too timid perhaps to make a move.
Next to me, Anna the Austrian tourist springs up with an idea. She walks away some steps, takes a few deep breaths and starts to yodel. I take some photos of the dingoes and of her standing in the shade of the bottlebrush. All dogs and pups are silent. The yodeler-dog stops licking the stretched hands to stare at her. I watch his yellow eyes, his ears, his tail. He is still on his hind legs. I sense an interest, a decision in the making, should I try or should I not, he seems to debate. Suddenly he runs back to the rock, points his head towards Anna and joins her in his own canine style. His other companions hesitate, growl, shake themselves, then join in too. Visitors are gathering around the sanctuary.
The keeper sits on a fallen gumtree, a dingo at his feet. As he pats him dreamily, he listens to the somewhat cacophonic notes coming from each side. His mind could be far away, in a different place, different setting, perhaps even in a different time zone. Some children start humming. The puppies seem excited and go back to test each other’s strength.
Mountains and wilderness … (a whisper faintly heard nearby) … what a wonderful mix!
It’s been plaguing me lately,
The reality of separation.
The knowledge that our expiration date lie just around the corner.
Inching closer with every passing day.
When we’re together I laugh and I pretend that I don’t know it,
Act like I can’t feel it gnawing away at me
But not a day passes where it doesn’t cross my mind.
Everyday my affection towards you, my appreciation of you grows
Though I know that it won’t save us.
How I think I must hate you
Over the fence
A garden of gerberas bright
Where you offer only lilies white
I want the adventure of thorns!
But you offer the simplicity of long white steams
As you march me to my end.